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The roads I walked by!

"I walked by many roads thinking that may be this one that can be called mine!
I walked miles on several roads thinking may be the destination is far away!"

Did that hit you, like, oh, that's me! May be to many or may be to none. But this is the life that taught me alot about me. That made me realize that, 'even we ourselves are unaware of us'. How much do we know ourselves? May be upto the level we just have thought with the perspective of someone who said us someday, 'hey! You were amazing at that.' And all we started walking onto the road that welcomed us with a heartful smile of giving us success at the initials and we walked more thinking, 'yes! I am made for this.'
Trust me you are not! You must have heard of mirage.. that means an illusion of water into the desert and that's what that 1st road made by someone else's perspective does. You may find yourself standing somewhere someday but are you really happy that way? Like your heart says, "finally I have found my isolation." May be yes or may be no. If it does so you are lucky that your heart is like you and not repulsive like mine.
My story started when I was in the school, I was happy whenever I was being praised ,whenever I helped someone so I decided to be a part of an NGO. Made like thousands of plans to run my own someday and to give all to others that I can give, but as the time started hitting me I realized, giving everything doesn't make you what you want but taking every second from the basket of time does! Helping others won't help if I myself being helpless to me. (Helpless says that disheartened ones.) I walked by like half the way and returned back by getting sort of regret and giving the time of mine to someplace that never asked me for.
The 2nd time started with the family hope of seeing their child at the position where their child can live into all comfort that they failed to give. ( trust me the comfort they give us is something we can't buy).
I entered into one more road hoping to find the hidden me one more time and this what I admired was the calmness I earned from the last path and there it hit me when I realized that everything was not just giving but more that given was learnt. That made my life a bit less complicated and that was the time when I looked with the glittery eyes towards the life!
By the time I chose another road like everyone must have done I too started to fit into the shoe that meant nothing to me. I walked, I walked and I walked till the shoes shouted and said, "get off us, you are making us uncomfortable!" That was the another time that hit me like an asteroid that destroyed the whole world of mine. You must be thinking that how the shoe can speak? It can if it is you itself!
And then was the last time when I sat in the middle of the delta road where I could see many ways going along and all I was supposed to do was to stand up and walk onto the one that was actually meant for me and so I did. I chose the one my heart and my mind made a tie for the very first time, when I was all filled upto the excited state where I could see myself more like a person I was meant to be. It took more like a life to me to make the right choice that meant perfect to me, that made me say, "this is forever!" (I am so not a forever person so when I say it means something).

From there onwards I learnt one thing that is worth to share.
Don't walk on every road you see, that gives nothing to you. Why to start always from the beginning when you can walk on the perfect one and can move that forward to lead the row you started from the back. The columns are worth when you not worthy!

Life is into the rows and not into the columns!
Learn it, smile it ,live it and move on!

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