Last night while crossing the road, my ankle got twist and I fell in the middle of the road. My bag fell a quite far away from me and I was trying my best to get up and stand again. The more I was trying hard the more I saw the car coming near to me..
That was the moment when I was afraid of death. I wasn't afraid because I didn't want to die but was feeling more broken while getting the visuals of my family that was waiting for me to come home and the person who is more like a family to me, with whom I dreamed to have a family.
It was just a single second where my life was looking more like "hot sit", all blank and trying to survive. I stood up just blink of second before te car crossed the same way where my bag was still lying.. After the moment the car passed by, I was looking at my bag that was thrown away! That very moment I was just thinking of me being there, and loosing every star person of my life and all I looked into my head was tears of my loves..
It was a person who helped me get up and held my hand tight saying, "are you okay! Everything is fine, you are all safe".
The weird was that I didn't have even a small tear drop instead I was in a trauma that was near to the death. All I was thinking about was, "is it me still alive, or I am ghost looking for my family to see them for the last time." Usually people can feel their beats during these times but I couldn't even feel my breath that I was holding inside..
I turned back and looked at the car I stepped out from and that moment I was in tears. That moment I realized I would have lost my everything that I earned upto my this life just in a second that even was not going to be counted anyway. I was with my love who dropped me home the one with whom my family was more comfortable than me!
I started walking towards home and called my friend just to distract myself so that I can enter my home with a smily face, the one that mom looks for whenever I come home. I reached home, checked my phone, there it was, a message from my love, "Did you reach safe, I heard of an accident on the same road when I dropped you!" That time I got my goosebumps ! What if I wouldn't be able to reciprocate him back! What if my mom didn't see me home! I was all swelled and into fever and was not in a state to move out of the bed.
The next morning I woke up, I got dressed to go to my normal schedule and upto 80% I did with a new fresh!
The moment it crossed my veins all again. All I was thinking about those who actually have gone through what I survived from. How many people have died without even seeing their loved ones for the last time..
All they took with them into the heaven were the moments they lived some seconds before. All they had was just the visuals into the blood pond..
Countless people must have been dead till now, whose that very single second is not being counted into the life of others. I almost saw me dead, lying on the road colored into the blood and people surrounding me saying, "call the ambulance or her family." And I saw myself closing my eyes while smiling for the last time.. I realized that what "life" is all about!
We all need is to be safe and take care of us not for selves but for those who care for us!
Drive slow, no drive when drunk, be safe while crossing the roads and be happy till you die..
*Near to the horizon, the end lies that has no ending!"*
That was the moment when I was afraid of death. I wasn't afraid because I didn't want to die but was feeling more broken while getting the visuals of my family that was waiting for me to come home and the person who is more like a family to me, with whom I dreamed to have a family.
It was just a single second where my life was looking more like "hot sit", all blank and trying to survive. I stood up just blink of second before te car crossed the same way where my bag was still lying.. After the moment the car passed by, I was looking at my bag that was thrown away! That very moment I was just thinking of me being there, and loosing every star person of my life and all I looked into my head was tears of my loves..
It was a person who helped me get up and held my hand tight saying, "are you okay! Everything is fine, you are all safe".
The weird was that I didn't have even a small tear drop instead I was in a trauma that was near to the death. All I was thinking about was, "is it me still alive, or I am ghost looking for my family to see them for the last time." Usually people can feel their beats during these times but I couldn't even feel my breath that I was holding inside..
I turned back and looked at the car I stepped out from and that moment I was in tears. That moment I realized I would have lost my everything that I earned upto my this life just in a second that even was not going to be counted anyway. I was with my love who dropped me home the one with whom my family was more comfortable than me!
I started walking towards home and called my friend just to distract myself so that I can enter my home with a smily face, the one that mom looks for whenever I come home. I reached home, checked my phone, there it was, a message from my love, "Did you reach safe, I heard of an accident on the same road when I dropped you!" That time I got my goosebumps ! What if I wouldn't be able to reciprocate him back! What if my mom didn't see me home! I was all swelled and into fever and was not in a state to move out of the bed.
The next morning I woke up, I got dressed to go to my normal schedule and upto 80% I did with a new fresh!
The moment it crossed my veins all again. All I was thinking about those who actually have gone through what I survived from. How many people have died without even seeing their loved ones for the last time..
All they took with them into the heaven were the moments they lived some seconds before. All they had was just the visuals into the blood pond..
Countless people must have been dead till now, whose that very single second is not being counted into the life of others. I almost saw me dead, lying on the road colored into the blood and people surrounding me saying, "call the ambulance or her family." And I saw myself closing my eyes while smiling for the last time.. I realized that what "life" is all about!
We all need is to be safe and take care of us not for selves but for those who care for us!
Drive slow, no drive when drunk, be safe while crossing the roads and be happy till you die..
*Near to the horizon, the end lies that has no ending!"*
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