8. Us Together #50th post

                               The Unknown Relation             

                               8.Us together

I didn’t know when they all went through my diary. Well there was nothing else I could have done except waiting for their next move. They all were players and were well aware that how to evoke me and so I told them that they won’t ever find him on social platform. I knew they had his number so whenever anyone’s phone popped it made me furious to know, who it must be? Even I used to get nervous when my phone showed any notification or calls from unknown number. I was aware of the fact that they all were upto something. We all seven were done with the placement and our every night turned into ‘party night’.

My birthday was coming though it was still a month far but it was one of our friendship rules to start collecting ideas and planning for the birthdays and that birthday person had to give them their personal time. So it was my turn now. After the classes they all used to meet at our meeting area which was the banyan tree shade. During that time I used to go through some old stuff of my school and graduation. I was in my room and was cleaning my messed up things. I was having nothing to do so I decided to settle my almirah. I found everything inside except those which were related to Kartik. Moreover things were stolen from my diaries. I had three diaries since school time and every diary had its own story. The pen that I took from Kartik in class 12^th, the flower he gave me in school, his bus ticket when we travelled together for the very first time, the smiley he made on my school notebook, his signature on my school notebook. The first bill when we ate together in the college, that one rupee coin he gave me on my birthday and the picture of the shake that we had shared with a single straw. Everything was missing from my diary. I knew it was done by them but I couldn’t ask as I always said that I have nothing that still make me remember of him and moreover I knew that now they were upto something big.

This time, my birthday countdowns were totally different because they used all my stolen props. Every morning I found one of his things on my lamp table along with a note written in an unknown writing but still that was known. Those curves on the note were exactly the same like Kartik’s but at the same time I used to say ‘how he could? I am overthinking.’ But those words meant a lot to me, every word that was scribbled had the same story related to his belongings. Well I was even happier because I was getting them back again into my diary. Finally! The day arrived that I was eagerly waiting for that too after such an amazing count down. In the morning I found the last note written ‘I will be waiting’ with a chocolate and a beautiful dress. That night whole club was booked for my birthday and everyone was there including some of my school friends. The music was at peak and the shots were fastening, everyone was enjoying with the ‘beat pe booty’ mood. Looking at those happy faces I felt even happier because my birthday party was the reason for that happy moment in the club. Suddenly my phone beeped and it was a text from an unknown number ‘you look beautiful’. I was quit confused that who is this now? I received one more text, ‘happy birthday’. I was just going to reply but again I got a text, ‘I missed you’. I was so nervous and confused that I left the party and when out to get some fresh air.  On the roadside near to the entry gate a bunch of rose was kept with my photo and one more note as well. I read the note, ‘I knew you will need the fresh air.’ This time I was pretty sure that it was him but how? I got one more text, ‘come in there’s a lot baby.’ That ‘baby’ was something that was the best memory of my past, of his. I took a long breath and went inside. The moment I entered the club the music stopped and a voice clearing the throat and it started, ‘hey love, wish you a very happy birthday.’ It was just the voice and not the person, I just heard the voice and I wanted to see him because now I knew that it was him. After a few moment of silence that voice again started,

Remember the day we met again?

Yes! The day we came back.

Remember the day we apologized for all the past mistake?

Yes! The day we read each other’s eyes again.

Remember the day we confessed again?

Yes! The day we talked our heart again.

Remember the day we held the hands again?

Yes! The day I found my lost strength again

Remember the day we hugged again?

Yes! The day when something broken inside us healed again.

The voiceover stopped and I was in tears because this poem was written by me and he loved this poem. This was the poem that he read by his self and appreciated me for that first poem. It was him again after 2 years. I didn’t expect him to be here because I never wanted to see him again that too on my birthday. The reason was that when I turned 18 and wanted him to be with me that day he left afterwards I never wanted him to make any come back or something on my birthdays but he always chose this day only. Well he and my all friends were standing together and he came in front saying we need to talk. I was having just one thought in my head that still there something left for him to say. ‘You should need to leave as I may make you feel uncomfortable.’ I said. This one sentence made all shocked that Kavya is saying this to Kartik. Kartik was in no shock because he knew my reaction. I left the party and went to the college park, Kartik followed me shouting, ‘you need to stop and we need to talk.’ I still loved him but the last memory was more powerful than my love. I didn’t stop and reached to the banyan shade there I found all six and all were holding a banner of “we are sorry but we love you.” I asked them that why they did this? Why they called him? Why they threw me back into that dark? They all spoke, ‘coz he loves you.’ After hearing that I laughed and said, ‘the person who didn’t love me since last 6 years will love me now. Even when I left without uttering a word he didn’t do anything. He always helped me as a friend and I fell in love. It all was my mistake and you guys brought him back for what? Making it impossible again to move on? He never loved me and he won’t ever. You guys did the wrong thing. I hate you.’ I was going into my room and I found my room locked so I went to the boy’s hostel park. I heard his voice again, ‘I am sorry’ he said.  ‘I don’t need your sorry or any other lecture I just want you to leave and more importantly you spoiled my one more birthday so you can now add this to your happy day,’ I said. ‘I have something for you it will take your 5 minutes and then I will leave I promise’, his words. I didn’t want any long and meaningless conversation so I went along. From the beginning of the park till my favourite bench every tree trunk had my pictures and caption below. I do remember the captions.

1. I am still the permanent and will always be, love.

2. The hair don’t go good with the bun but seems perfect when untied and messy, love.

3. I am still all yours and will always be, love.

4. Staying away and not talking for so long was hard for me as well.

5. I love your presence as it feels like bless and your absence a curse.

6. You are different and will always be, love.

7. I want me to be your stress reliever and not those chocolates anymore, love.

8. I want to talk to you at every moment, love.

9. That inner circle I have in my life I want you to enter in and heal me like you always wanted to.

10. Will you come back to hold me even more tightly?

These 10 captions made me cry right there in front of him. I hugged him and said I am sorry but I still love you. He smiled a bit and kissed my forehead saying I know. I asked him why he did all this and he asked me to close my eyes, I did and he took me to that last bench. I opened my eyes and found two cakes one for my 6 years back 18^th birthday and one for my 25^th birthday. I cut the cake and he asked me to wait and then asked me to stand on the bench, I did and I stood. He looked into my eyes and said, ‘I love you and I always did.’ It was the best feeling ever in my life. I jumped over him and hugged him kissing his neck. I asked him that why he wanted me to stand on the bench? He said, ‘you didn’t want knee proposal as per your diary and I wanted that so I thought this will be good.’ We laughed.  My friends came over and wished us and blessed us.  Kartik held my hands, pulled me closer and said the same, ‘I am sorry but I still love you and will always do.’ He kissed my hand and then my forehead. For the 1^st time I reciprocated him, ‘I love you too.’ And then we kissed and afterwards we decided not to leave again.

We never did that couple promises but we always chose to stay even after our arguments. Kartik made me realize that how stronger you feel from inside when your love is with you. My life was all complete now. And the last page of my diary was scribbled with- Kartik and Kavya forever. The ‘Us’ together.

                                                                                                                                      ~The End

(My love story was just next to impossible till the time I thought it’s over but I was wrong. This is something different and special about love. If it is true and pure as your soul then your love will win and will always be yours.)